final design has come to its end.finally.alhamdulillah.hilang stress melampau sekejap.

however,i would say that it has a sad end for my own project.things werent exciting on my board.

those tht i dont deserve compliments.

i always wanted to get better,but it didnt work after all.seing others growing more & more on their design,

other than feeling happy and proud for them,i felt myself sunken in a false hope.hope that says 'i'll go somewhere from here'.truth is,its a total lie.in fact,i kinda feeling' i aint go nowher'e with such outcomes i've produced.

*part of new year resolution here

but after all,im the kind tht not easily give up.i'll try.even if i face failures after,its ok.then i'll try again.

so,on my next attempt on design i would like to introduce more of boyish approach to my design style.

lets see how it works next semester.gonna do it differently.

a piece of hope.

Ya Allah,give me the chance to prove myself n everyone that i can take it higher.towards betterment,hoping for the best i can produce. =)

some people were born lucky.you're 20,your dad's rich,then you got married.poof!life so easyy man!

is it just me trying to handle things frivolously in a way i can loosen the tense?oh in any of my oblivious state of mind,i wish i can jab my fear and eat them up!

feel like an total idiot.seorang yang hanya mampu bercita-cita,tapi  tak mampu buat ygt terbaik utk dirinya.itu aku pada masa ini.

i guess this whole thing of  i-dont-have-life-in-architecture fall to all of the archi students.
so it makes us the same old folks trying  to jump out of  the crazyyy,unhabitual discomforting zone.
and hell im talking in such manner bcause archi makes me behave like th one in th asylum.like a LUNATIC!

2 things that excites me!

this thing kinda please me as always.a tad creature,but powerful one.-my pweetty pendrive..(yeah,gediks)

a brand new 'pensel tekan'(woohoo).

okay,i may have no purpose posting this,but sometimes non-living stuffs delights you more than th living one does.so get yourself more of helpful materials than ....erm cats or rabbits?

p/s:non living stuffs dont poop around!

okay,being ridicolosss at 2.57 am.

tired of being nobody.

like a prick.or worse.

things arent at ease.
nothing has gone better.
Story went amiss.
the wound havent recovered.
She's gloomy as ever.
I want a dot.You know we pleading an epilogue.


At least they're unseen,unheard for now.
Dear God.

and so for now.

im living in a world,where in life,it is all about how you work on that form,turn the space into some functional environment.with air of possibilities inside.wondrous?

take a peek next time you heard me screaming.

or,
on th second thought i could be driven by them books.

prepare for drastic,bloody enthusiastic behaviour?nahh

but at least i know things could work out well somehow.

with persistent,unbias timing on design n stuffs(pfft like i was saying 'i rather play barbie than trashing up some mock-ups).and more of sleepless nights.

i might end up discovering nyc!oh so much of dreaming in th evening.hah!

when moms are better dads,this is when the world really starts to make sense again.which is indeed impossible to extrude the rationality.

but the condition has it say.

and ths could worsen the friction against you.

a similar liar like you probably ended in the dumpster.

because they dont have their blood running in my body.

and that is reason that has saved you.

hey it wont flush the anger you know.
counting down for the damages.
we've been waiting for this,arent we,huh?
*esctatic joy applauses*

sometimes i need to burst the pieces hidden inside.out,out and away..

aah,i need a blindfold next time you're here around.or at least earbuds to save my ears frm those words you utter.living an silent,empty box life seems rather fine than to endure your presence.
Handling too many self-wrecking dramas is quite tiring..
unleashing tempers is not a preferable one.hence,sod off.
sealing unfavourable voices of mine is mind-relieving.
mere anger inside wouldnt hurt the public,at least.

not under righteous conscience

they said cowards walk out of reality.


what to deny about it?Nothing,to be exact.

to drop or to drag.

they're not favourable options,though.

but as further i go,more uncertainty filling the room.

occupying th mindless soul.

ah,and again,the lunatic speaks trash.

back on board ;)

just to be frank,
i sensed myself with those cliche feeling tingling all over me.
worries,panic,yeah.they've all been tingles inside me since i read brief itu.

but,hey,im already in my 5th sem,and th last thing i need to worry is actually..nothing.
it came to my suprised,when i could stay on calm writing these down,right after reading,well,th pre-death brief.

of course the inevitable feelings werent easily remove,a grown minded ppl should've at least have faith in their mind,regardless those mean feelings tht currently besetting em.

yes,insyaallah aku cuba untuk menempuh hari2 penuh mencabar ini.pabila duniaku kembali hiruk-pikuk.

ahoy,captain! : )

a bit here,a bit there

about raya.
two things i kept on questioning.
1.)kids nowadays (referring to:my sisters n lil cous) they dont go kutip2 duit raya around th kampung.oh,why??i stll remember how excited we all mingled togethaa(me,sisters,cousins,& some of my childhood friends)strolling down th kampong and kutip2 duit raya(siap ada target rumah bagi 20 sen je pftt) and i'd ths one time,me,and my sister,dua2 kain terkoyak sebab naik tangga rumah pak ape tah,then we cry all th way back(+ pak cik tu suro basuh pinggan sendiri).uish,ape la pak cik..!lol!

2.)kids nowadays they dont play masak2 like us waktu kecik2 dulu.i was like 'hey,dulu2 kiteorg siap guna au natural ingredients kat luar rumah tu je,masak pasir,letak air sikit,daun bunga kertas,bubuh atas kuali(atas dapur buatan sendiri),bawah rumah..!haha
how time flew!as if like im already grown ups,unable to do ths kiddy stuffs.some of us already married,and we laughs at ourselves bile bercerita balik. its fun tho just to reminiscing,again.
few flashbacks arent sins.

3.)i love my family.God please make us stay togethr through the rain :(

about them.

1.)i meet em.happy enough.

2.)brought some caramel,utk kak mah.she wanted it really bad.tapi bawak tak banyak.thus we kept it a secret.

3.).on our way for lunch dengan noma.i meet him.gosh!starstruck!th guy i'd head over heels sewaktu dahulu.we did chat for awhile,weee and i never want it to stop.got to say babai.was starved like hell.

materials speaking.
1.)finding th rightest nude.th girl at th counter applied every nude shades as possible on my lips.nahh.wasnt impressed at all.haih.currently,still hunting.

2.)got my eye on these flats.sorry to say but never compromise yourself on discounted items.grab while you can hence,it's mine.

3.)into consideration.and so she said she gave me 10% on th rockstar not-so-rockstar bag.it's okay.keep aiming! :)

4.)I gave up on th moschino's!more important stuffs on th list,seperti pen dakwat hitam 0.1,0.2,0.3,0.4,0.5 and th list goes on and on.better keep this 30% off unique scarfed watch on hold.

about 12/9/11
1.)i cant decide th feeling.it;s either thrill or shrill.

2.)i havent go through th pre-death brief.still,i have to,eventually.

3.)I'M NOT effing READY.

4.)i want to hibernate more.

5.)i think i'm a bear.

6.)i dont need school.

7.)i need cool place i can shed myself.im a bear.

8.)on second thought no,im not!

9.)im just th last person on earth who doesnt want to exit herself frm ths holiday...

10.)I'M LITERALLY CRYING OUT LOUD! :'"""(

p/s:i'm a tad concern bout what's gonna happen later in ths 5th sem.catastrophy,again?hell no.

i want it sounds beautiful.

That's right,then only we can take it to our heart,innit?
few days left before, raya..

and before, God-knows-what happening,next after raya.

i dont like reminding myself again,&again

had enough of hyperventilation reading th endless brief frm my lect.little will suffice,okay..

lets not rant this time.rght now,i want to talk good.

read more then you can do more.

but,work hard,and does it mean you can spend harder??

thats an absolute false fact well in fact it's not good practicing such habit.

so right now,parallel to ths blessed Ramadhan i'm tryin to lessen th intensity of devouring those things i crave hard enough,resisting temptation frm  'duniawi' materials tht keepin us from seeking the most  prominent reason why  we should've celebrate Ramadhan the way we should,diminishing those of which leaves your heart obscure,ridding th uncertainties tht keeping us company all ths while.
Ramadhan, ini aku harapkan
Improving.
Cleansing our body & soul,
amend by patience,along with pure wisdom,,to bcome th better one.

There's beautiful wonders for us to discover laying underneath this thick sheet of ego & carelessness.
Searching things to comprehend somehow lead us to better understandings.

There's still fat chance of hopes,in finding the real treasures and hidayah frm Him.Insyallah..

i  dont want getting end with agony.

the life He bestow to us.

Learn to appreciate.everything that revolves around us.

Alhamdullilah :) Salam Ramadhan..

p/s:it turns out i'm th general cookie-baking manager(self-entitled)for all 4 types of moms cookies!though im not really th number 1 fan to bake em cookies,at first.hahah =)
  

woooo

i just did a lil sneak peek into th loong scary brief,and yeah! it's sure one hell of a horror premonition to us,th architecture students.
*few seconds after only reading th intro*
and why is everybody who's visible around me didnt tell me earlier i should've made a clear decision before i dunk myself in ths architrouble.T________T why,why,why!alas,i was th one who's goin to be in trouble all wayy ahead.*barf*

*after sitting all alone while baking cookies,late at night*
of course i got my mind,still,stuck in misery.still.preoccupied by tht brief.
i came to think again why was i ever destined to ever hooked up wth such heavy & complicated commitment..
So this is what i could thought of.

God has th answers to everything of what He had choosen to happen.
Hence,face it..

Do not regret you silly!He'd given you th best option in life.He knows better.He might has better plan for me than I had for myself. =]
& thank God,after randomly scrolling up and down my lappy,i found a very interesting piece that may infuse th archi spirit back into my body and quickly jazz up my brain,once again!
yokay,lets regain ur passion again and lets see how we kickin' later ya!


ilovearchitectureilovearchitectureilovearchitecture haha taste this spell  on ya tastebuds!

2 bulan,20 hari

alhamdullilah,aku akhirkan kerja aku di situ dengan sempurna..
walaupun terasa sangat sekejap masa itu untuk aku di sana,
tapi,
rasa sangat bertuah,hati gembira & bersyukur.
dapat mengenali mereka-mereka di samping aku,
mungkin kami berbeza-beza umur,
tapi memang aku selesa dengan mereka.
2 bulan,20 hari,tawa,jenaka,aku kongsi di situ
bila tadi aku bersalam dengan mereka,
mata ni terbasah.
aku sedikit terkilan
masa itu tak cukup untuk aku lebih lama di sini
aku tahu dalam bas tadi,
noma taknak peluk aku sangat,
pandangnya ke aku pun acuh tak acuh
mungkin dia taknak sedih sangat mungkin.
sebab aku paling rapat dengan dia.

terdetik hati aku,
i left a piece of me here.
i might coming back for more.
Insyaallah,.. :]


the ultimate experience@Marks&Spencer. :]

again!

pretty clothes,
pretty price,
pretty bargain.
undeniably satisfied@KlBazaar,SoHoKL. ;)

BUSY ME.

inhale,exhale...........

seeking someone besotted by ka-chings?yeah tht would be me.

this is why i came to th early decision of diggin some moolah,doin part time in Marks&Spencer.

hwever,the clock's ticking,& im leaving soon..

somehow,it's kinda awkwardly amazing how time runs soo fast tht i cant really believe im about to toast my farewell sooner!

ha,like a blink of eyes.yeah,2 m0nths & 20 days.and that's that.

sangat cepat masa itu berlalu.

then it'll come,the quick raya,

then again,

STUDIES.

cepatnya!

i wonder if i can keep up in ths fast pace?

am i ready to take myself to all new higher level?

will i survive?

architecture..?

ok,the last word on th questions:lets keep on hold,ya..(why cnt i get myself more agitate??duhh)

cuti is cuti.rehat.hibernate.

actually,i got soo many personal- satisfaction- projects after resign nanti,keepin myself beezehh as always~
p/s:runny nose is sooo grossy + annoying.. =______=

i dont need much when i got entwined with you guys!i'll spare the delicious details of ths rendezvous next time i got my free hands on th keyboard.till then! ;)

THE MANNEQUIN

her life as the mannequin,

stay still,

frozen behind the glass pane

she watched th life of others frm th inside.

worrying nothing of hers.

she lives alone.

but,she is what she was meant to be.

a figure which get covers with decisions of others.

no one would ask if she likes it or not.

poor her.

the smile you see frm her,

thing you didnt expect

there's a gush of tears inside.

who will ever knew,

the suffering from silence besetting her.

i doubt you do.bet me.

i'm pathetic.

if i were someone else but me,

i'll ask her to sod off.go somewhere.go get lost in the wood.jump off the roof.

do whatever.disappear,maybe.

make urself vanish fast enough people couldnt recall u anymore. 

not until im  possibly goodenough to sort things out,the charge flows inside is (-)

that's it for now.

it past my bed time but i really need to yell this out and loud!
darn,i never thought this job could really ruin  the shopping vow-must shop less for less bla,bla,bla.ok.vowing bullshit.
well,it never work tht wayy.
the moment i hold that velvet jacket,and that leather(in pastel)peeptoe wedges,plus that *seriously* dazzling leopard printed long wool dress,and *some etc,i know it's just damn hard to slip them off frm my hand.gosh.
yep.that hard.
see,working in a shop fills with good & non resistable stuff  is super heaven and a paradise for those shopaholic out there.
my advice,*as to myself especially* think double twice about working again in a shop selling things u couldnt resist to say NO on having em'.
it's always preferable working@ kedai makan,be it any F&B outlet.
1.free staff meal everyday
2.zero stuffs to hide in the store tunggu utk dibeli. =______='

ugh.i need to re-budget my $.
and tomorrow,further markdown.haih.menguji iman dan nafsu btul lah.

p/s:however yaww.it's awkward times two to have this good feeling again. guess here i go again.falling again. ;) ini hanya mungkin perasaan kadang-kadang.

sangat la busy tak sempat mandi,or even nak buka laptop,trus tertido.
that;s the new routine while being in holiday phase.
kerje,kerje dan kerje. even dont have th time to update myself.gah *sometimes i feel really outdated not knowing whats up on their updates*
oh,tapi tak jugak kurus2,haih....
blame it in mcds,chicken lemon,nasi makcik nautica,teh ais gila babun sedap tu,hah amek kau.
diet tinggal dlm kenangan je.dammit.haha

some of things i missed out there.teh3layer kat redone,naan cheese butter garlic pakcik kamal,spritzer 1.5 liter everyday,and.........my Handsomes.haih.tak sabar nak balik gelak2 dgn mereka semua ;)
new life begins later.

right now.bekerja dan menghabiskan masa di sana dengan kamu. ;)

Ya Allah,selamatkan lah kawan aku..

Qimie,..sekarang dia tgh bergelut dgn nyawanya.battling for the one & only precious life like the one we had now.nothing to spare with.
Struggling with something not refundable,nor exchangable yet it has to be given back to the owner,Him.

sooner or later.Same goes to us all.

We cant never expect what shall happen next.

'haqimie sekarang berada di bilik operation..kaki beliau akan di potong akibat pendarahan..nk stopkan pendarahan..paru2 nya yang ade darah beku dh selesai..so kene potong kaki die kalu di nk survive..sbb ade penderahan kt otak..kalu dh potong baru leh wat pembedahan kt otak'..

Sesungguhnya Kau Yang Maha Mengetahui,Ya Allah.Berikanlah yang terbaik buat kawanku ini.

 

H a r i I n i

bukan mcm semalam,
bukan mcm kelmarin,
atau bukan macam 6 atau 7 hari lepas.
hari ni lain.hari ni aku tercelik mata sekejap.
kenapa?
sebab aku jumpe dua orang kawan baru dekat sana.bukan tak pernah kenal,
tapi baru nak bercerita lanjut tentang perihal masing-masing.
taklah menarik sangat pun,mereka pun biasa,
sama macam  aku,
kerja tempat sama,
balik kerja jam yang sama,
naiik bas u30,or metro79 kalau balik kerja,
cuma destinasi yang berbeza-beza selepas itu.
dan disitulah perbezaannya antara kami
kau dengan kisah hidup kau
aku dengan perihal hidup aku.
berbeza,
mengetahui impian,cita-cita mereka  yang sebenarnya,
tapi mungkin dihad atau dihalang oleh keadaan.
impian terhenti kerana adik-adik yang ramai.
bantu mak dan bapak katanya.
aduhai,
hebat nya kau,tolak cita-cita demi yang lain.
"belajar selagi boleh,berjaya.."
aku simpan kata-kata tadi
jangan sekali mengeluh.
"bersyukurlah dapat belajar,teruskan je"
mungkin ayat-ayat ni sudah tipikal,
dan barangkali ini reaksi kita "eh kau.sedap-sedap je cakap,bukan belajar pun"
tapi bila dihambur sendiri oleh mereka ini,
yang tak senasib dengan kita yang masih boleh dan mampu mentelaah ini,
dan mereka yang tersangat mahu berada di tempat kita,
ia satu yang berharga.
simpan ia.
teruskan,
insyaallah
ianya kemas dalam genggamanmu =]

in th abyss of frustration

no one can really tell/feel when someone's facing her deep frustration/fear.when it turns out to be real.yeah.we're talking real nightmares crawling right under your nose.be it my freakiest loss or whatever to this i may call,tp frankly it's a total devastation.kalah pada yang satu ini..Ya Allah..astaghfirullahalazim. = ( sedih teramat,when u'd already berhempaspulas mcm nak rak,but at th end,it doesnt pay off.you got nothing.aku x ckp bende ni illogical or irrelevant,ye,i do admit it's my mistake after all,tapi..its th hardwork yg last2 useless jugak akhirnya.

this is th one i regret for.

'Honouring' C of design.6 credit hours.burnt after all.

mana ada org teruk sgt smpai C.malu,sedih,frustrated,sendiri pun tatau how to console herself.

i need remedy.

paling dekat pon retail therapy,maybe.

Ya Allah,the Most Merciful,you're the One that could restore my strength,..& yet,again. =[

the shop infront my shop next to the infamous shop :)

just walked past the neighbourhood.the one in front our shop which next to habib is just about to start th sale!yeay!*euphoria atmospehere's in! n histeria sikit*new lower price comin to town!ngahaha.its not just a shop.its mng.uh.it's the money part that pause me onto thinkingg more on those God-knows-what in the store right now.
so utk sekarang,lets just browse(& keep browsing) while u have zero in wallet.tunggu further markdown,maybe? 
p/s:hungry for shawls.promod has the coolest pieces yet also 'harsh' value of th price tag.
abandoning ridiculous thoughts on you is better than to carry  them around in my mind.finding th exit fr you frm my brain.

the best part is,i got to munch th pack of that drop dead delicious dark chocolate biscuits at only rm2,instead of urm,rm 29?*happy sigh of satisfied employee* haha =)

personally,i havent been good for th last few days as i recap.tapi,thank God,alhamdulillah,the job im currently in is totally awesome*so far*while there's still more to be acquaint of.so yeah,dah 8 days bekerja,n some of guys there are cute though,ngehe~it's either absurd or surreal,but when u can easily convince ppl by jst saying'i think this looks good on you',on a 200myr swimsuit,oh, its quite suprising.well at least i got suprised.huh,i guess tht value of money doesnt count so much to those ppl wth truckloads of dollars in their account.
someday i hope just to easily splurge n spill without thinking too much on the budget.ngahaha.bestnye mcm tu.ko amik je ape ko nak eh,xpayah pikir2 lah!*ow yeah*okay,not good to spend lavishly.baiklah.back to work :)

p/s:replenishing strength to all.love u peeps with all my hearts.lets us all stay together for whatever's coming ahead us.may God always be with us.no one  mess with th Khoiril's okay.grasp that in mind u silly.

what will happen when all of sudden the harsh storm suddenly crashed your blissfully happy ride and rip things up and torn  ppl down ? : | uaretypical

LETS GET EKSAITED

lets see..been here(coolest crib so far) about 4 days,and 'le routine' just about to get pump up!its been two freakin days(in a row,pretty much cant believe that) where i got my butt on the bicycle,instead of the comfy couch instead,haha.then i go jumpy2 with th skipping rope,yeah on th first day i managed only 20 rep!pastu letih semacam.sshit.thats a bad sign which read 'GIRL,YOU GOT LOONG WAY TO GO'.yup.so,however,on the 2nd day,the countings just raised to 50 rep of skipping!yyay..there at least should be a pile of sweat collected since the workout.ok,easy on th hyperbola.gahh.

xpe!im doin this for whats comin into the closet.oh please,please,please........

p/s:have you heard/seen of real life series of 'I USED TO BE FAT' on mtv??thats the current motivation :)
      hope i can be just like one of them too,someday.

if you ever had anything perishable,get rid of it.Quickly.

on some late thoughts.

on 1st thought.u know,it's not good what u did/do to people.crushing them down and act like u know nothing and thats just a piece of shit u know.u might have the insanely innocent face/smile /whatsoever tat makes u look like the one with halo but hey,i believe that was superficial.none of them was real and trust me,u wont stay for long.grow up and try to be nice dear.

on 2nd thought.back there,i was this decent believer of a fairy tale love life.now only that im having my foot on the real world brings me to the perfect sense,which makes me believe family,good friends and money,they come first.then only the L word with the four letters will appear for the real someone,hee..*yikes,ok easy on the cheesy part,zet.

gahhh

know what,i try to make it sounds less suicidal,but having 2 Livitas in less than 24 hours is enough to make your brain explodesssss like dezszszsssssss hah.mcm tu la agak2.skrang pun agak dizzy.

p/:showever y'all,:toast to the first half of our emancipation :)

now, the real battle just begins.

deal with what matters most,babe.
DESIGN.6 credit hours.
one last chance.

no more life spare for you ,zet.

do or die.

For what i shall conceal,from the eyes of the audience,gets me wonder sometimes.to whom,where or where i shall render these uninvited feelings. im not welcoming  em' to inhabit inside nor letting them overpowering my conscience.NO,i wont.yet ,finding strength to prevail against them is hard, though.But. they'd once said,let bygones be bygones.then only you can continue surviving,in the upcoming battles.Retrieving victories.just like the one you'd possessed before.

Dear Pn Khairi,

well i know,at this time im writing these* purposedly bursting my sincerest thoughts on you*,you already  sleeping safe & sound.out of the chaos from the reality mess, in the perfect slumberland.the rightest place,in the finest atmosphere i always wanted u to be in,mom.
This would be more of aSorry note rather than Thanks note on being the best mom & bla3.*since when you have not been so,kan?

I wrote this just to reminisce the old days when i was growing up as a stupid,hard headed teen before*mcm sekarang tak je kan mak ;)?

to those rebellious-me days against everything you taught me.again,Sorry for decades of those suffering*starting the day i kicked in your womb,which was surely ouch*i didnt make it sound so bad,did i?*pfft me.

but,d ya remember,those little notes i gave/slowly kept on your bag everytime i felt angry on you?they remind me of how damn patient of you momma for receiving each notes  from this unsatisfied daughter complaining every single prematured thoughts of her, membebel macam2.n still,you always the one who console,n comforts me everytime i felt like a tootal shit,for like,most of the time & for this,God bless you always tau..hee

regardless of those immature,selfish,stupid,silly,badigol deeds that i'd ever done to you,i still want to be the best daughter to you mom.the one who will secure you,the one who spares more of her time laughing with you kat dapur,and the one sharing whats she's believe in,and for this,I always crave to be "that one" for you =)

& for that,i dont want you to miss every single thing happens on me,EVER,insyaallah,coz you are the reason for me to see pretty things happening around me,us.
much love from anakmu,kak ngah =)

p/s:i'll be the best 2nd child everr!duhh mcm ade 2nd yg lain je kann,ntah2 kalau ade mak da tuka dah ={ tak kott =='

here you go!i'm at this is one moment*suprisingly not the awkward one* when i'm least expecting for the details of knowing something tremendously bad is gonna happen.atleast without looking back,i ll shut my eyes & covers those ears from the harsh truth-revealing(sooner) *will help me get through this*.gahh this is time when truth seems absurd,babe.

DearGod,please finish me.*with a happy ending,perhaps?*

p/s:beat me on something you hardly complaint about.then you win.

dan pabila emak bersuara

'kak ngah,balik cuti ni emak nak hantar pergi belajar driving' and i went like 'emak,saye xde perasaan lagi lah nak bawak kereta'.
,weh!i cant really imagine im holding those steering konon bajet nak bawak mcm van diesel dlm fast & furious tuh.pergh.AKAN TETAPI,ye,kalau tgh jalan mggunekan kaki ni pun mcm x ambik kisah kete lalu lalang (main cross je)dont remind  me of countless time drama nak melintas jalan bersama rakan2.bila nak melintas dgn zet je msti smue org takut nyawa melayang sbb dia suka main melintas sesuka hati je = ='(hey,nak save time,okay!)
DAN INIKAN PULAK nak drive those mobile thingy that got that 4 wheels underneath??huish.mg kete tu x tahan sehari la da kemek remuk langgar sanasini.see mom!i'll be a reckless driver & you get to pay surat saman tu every month kot nanti!hahah.lagipun,what choice pun do i have even IF i got the license,coz it's either dad's old car yg stereng berat gila(ready-to-be-junk)*sorry dad! & that silver car yg mom will never ever compromise even for single,tiny lil scratch(x boleh okay!) so mmg mcm takkkan terbawak mane2 pun.heh.nampaknye tiap2 hari kene sewa kereta kancil kalau nak bersiar-siar di kota raya!LOL!

whoopsy!

when all this while i thought drinking the 1.5 litre spritzer per day  is a safe way to lose weight*& bulih kasi sihat,then here comes

.."But as with everything, be careful and don't overdo it. Drinking too much water can be toxic, so exercise moderation. Water is not a substitute for food, and you can indeed cause severe health issues if you drink too much water daily, including severe heart and endocrine system problems."

jap.this get me questioned.does 1.5 litre amount count as dangerous attempt to screw my lovely kidney?
:(sshit. gotta google more on 'tips on how u should drink the watahh'

p/s need to have that perseverance, u know to start the so called  diet regime.can it really be done?bole ke zet bole ke zet bole ke zet lalala

so,here goes one lesson,stop being judgemental.it gets u nowhere but only to point at u back,get it?

Today,i cant really understand why some people could not end their sentences with a 'Thank You' or 'Sorry'.it wouldnt also be less appreciated if you give me a worthy smile replacing that two words.hard enough,heh?

"people with no manners are barbarians".*feels like writing in on Post-it & shove it onto your face. you stinky ass.
= =' ye,geram sangat.

on her wishful thinking

RENEWING PRECIOUS MOMENTS

AN ESSENTIAL EXCEPTION,OKAY. ;)

PLEASE BE MINE,WILL YA? :)

the procrastinator and the resultant effect.

see,thats what you got when you are not gifted with IQ of 122,& spent 2.9/3 of your day wandering,dreaming as if  u are the next heir of British throne,and yeah,this sluggish sloth is about to face the consequences.shall we wait & see,Zet?

yikess!haaha bila bace balik my previous post,i couldnt deny how juliet of those words,  ayat bunga-bungi camni!LOL!sesunnguhnye it's just something crossed in ma mind & happened to be written here =) now that's what we call as, the reality ride!

p/s:things doesn't always change the way we want em' to.hence, over rule.& a little bravery.

and after the exclusion of  the other thoughts,its your presence which stays linger in the realm of my deepest thoughts.
*and tetibe mak call suruh turun bawah sekarang!*haha to be continued..

all of sudden all i need is what's in past.

OMIGOSH.

ok,what a day today,spent with my good buddies,huda &am.

secondly is,what a great day today to see those tempting figures like i told before,those 50%,70% which gets every girl/lady/woman/mommas goes CRAZAYYYY!*thank god i was not that crazy enough.blame on scarcity of $ in the pocket.sheesh.

thirdly is,what a veryy fabulous day,the day that menaikkan semangat untuk slim downn sehhh!kenape??thanks to those rompers,dresses n cool blouses I met today!yaww,now that i'd quite aiming for them,so,yeah!the need of peeling those fats are probably the first thing on top of my TO DOs list!*hey,it always has been ok,just selame ni x gerak je,haha!

p/s:get ready to get into my closet,soon!pls,pls,pls =)) n heh kau.hutang da langsai okay,haha.
2nd p/s:now i need to get ready on drafting the holiday schedule,*yayy*

tumbang,tumbang &tumbang lagi.

tumbang lagi sekali buat pertarungan kali kedua.gergasi itu rupanya lagi kuat!shit!ingat dah boleh menang kali ni.rupanya tidak :( harap2 xjumpe balik ketua villain yg hantar gergasi tu tu semester depan.heh.

to start something new,is the endeavour to leave the old things behind you & how strong of you ,to hardly not turning back.still.it against my will.why should i?at least not for now.im still the one who accept the norms of life,in place where she thinks these are way much safer than professing her new thoughts,deviating from the usual scenes of regularity,typicality.
this is different.a sequence to different dimension of mind.im not prepared for the undertakings.the agreements,,the commitment.
I doubt her.The one that trapped inside.

sheeshh scribbling words after midnight studies.none of todays accomplishment,zet!

LET LOOSE

let's turn back time.those days in the highschools.where we seriously learnt the exact meaning of real,true bond of friendships.at least there is where i learnt that my precious sistas were always there for me,be it when we were caught up in dorms for not goin/late to surau or even when the whole troops stuffed into a room*durrah's or baby's*bergossip sakan,makan pizza same2,see,buat baik or jahat smue same2 =) and God,thank you coz bringing them into my life,I still  dont get how they can treat me so nicely despite the reason that i was a hardcore sensitive person  and unbelievably ego ya amat!and babes,u guys did understand me,jage perasaan gua and still,treated me like a child.*dude,i felt pampered kot dulu!ngade2!
hey,just to let korang tau,i'd evolve to a better person nowdays,trust me =]
no matter countless number of people or even here my dearest close friends buat zet terase ke,they seldom,i know,tapi mcmanepun i rarely mengamuk konon tunjuk protes gila2 or merajuk cam ape mcm dulu2  ke kan haha & instead, i  keep it to myself.tetibe rase bangga of how i let loose of everything.how chill of me,when it comes to 'friending bond' at this point  of early twenties time*LIKE SERIOUSLY?.haha
TRUTH IS,i was no longer zet yg ngade2 mcm dulu tu,cehh!tolong bangga ye korang.
yelahh dah tua2 ni malas nak cari gaduh kan,drama sanasini mcm mase kite kecik2 dulu..i am so much ermm..more reserved kot skrang?probably,perhaps,maybe?hihi.

p/s:you are really,someone.alahai..but for sake of the other one i guess! =]

 i rather 'play happy' than shows the true off-set sadness,dear.
u should now learn it's a bittersweet world out there & colours everything in between and, as ruthless as the world could be,we always have them around.Dear God,thanks much.. =) bcause what you'd given is more than enough.

p/s: the feelings afterwards?who cares.

"And I hate the feeling that comes afterwards." =[

GOOD BARGAIN *yeay me..*

ok,cue to happy dance now!!!kenape ya?lets see,50%,60%,70% perhaps these are the most beautiful math figures to most women out there,&hell yeah to me n my sis,Kak Toy sebab we guys dapatla tawar menawar dengan kakak kedai tu for a very delicate peach coloured lace jacket at a very reasonable price!yauuu!and that vintage loking jacket was incredibly satu2 nya tinggal and fuh,nasib baik still mampu fit body yg gempal ni.hahah
n kakak cakap being persuasive is a must in buying things yg kita nak sangatttttt at a very 'good price'.

p/s:can we really persuade anyone to peek inside our mind just to see the wishful thinking treasured       inside??pfft.a wishful thinking before beranjak from teen to ty,maybe? ;)

DEAR DUDE.

see,the unevitably feeling comes again.urgh i hate u for bringing me back from what i left since the past few weeks haritu!you are not that addictive rasanya,but hey, huh u messing up my purrr-fect life tales which i'd excluded u.tapi kan,
            
         "i would've lie if i say that i don't even have  the littlest,slightest crush on you,cause man, I do."
 highlights on the bolds.sikit saja,okay.
 P/S:being surrounded by people you love n loving you back will always comforts you,and yeah,its perfect :)
welcome home,me & to mommah,ayah,kak toy,aca n kak yang LOVE UGUYS TRUCKLOADS!

sneak in,sshhhh!

hey.i shouldnt be here right now.tons & tons & countless works waitin right in front my face!sheesh!
 im in the abyss of somewhere,in typical confusion and..oh,in this icy cold studio,where its raining outside,damn,its pretty goood reason why i should shut the eyeballs.ugh.boleh la plak kann!

on FIGURING OUT this coming Monday.

'That’s luxury, too, when it’s accepted without any complexes.'  and as i say so. pfffttt

on being judgemental.

see,if i could stop and stare just for one second on anything then i can say more than everything to that anything of something.shit im blabbering,again.well,the focus point is,im a judgemental typo.i did,i do judge everything happens around me.i curse,i praise,i love,i hate,this kind of tiring when too much of judgement sends you to the state of complicated thinking,where u couldnt decide,u couldnt help resolving reasons of life and whats goin to happen someday,DAMN it.

 next post shall be on temperamental behaviour,maybe?.sheessh.speaking of the pessimistic me.
haha

NEXT > IM PUTTING MY GEAR UP!READY,SET,GO!
taknak repeat,and nak DL.thats it.

i dont really understand how life can sometimes punch you at the face,and thats a total gruesome,and how life could kindly offer the land of happiness which has always been temporary,*sigh..

fine,the real world i guess.where it is is contiminated with pathetic,critical life conflicts.aha!

can we turn back the time where the most i can do is smile and asking for that one scoop of butterscotch icecream,again &again?because right now,the whole idea of getting one from anyone seems rationally not goin to happen.
its either i have to buy one cone for myself or nothing.see,NOTHING.ughh.

putting myself in THE FLOW,soon i'll HAVE the RIGHT GRIP.

SEE,THINGS GET EASIER WHEN WE CLEAR THINGS OUT =] WHEN WE KNOW WHERE TO SET THE BOUNDARIES,when EVERYTHING just fixed into their places as before.JUST THE WAY WE really have to be in,right? =D " move on when u've moved out"
                                                                                                                                  XOXO,
                                                                                                                            ZETHAZZET

FANTASIZING FEBRUARY.

fuhhh!tats first reaction i could say while im in February.but then,im adding (: at the end of the day,eventually!lets see.....3 main events that i can nevereverever forget *ever&ever (x boleh lupaaa) ceyy! =)))

1.)CORALINE,the play.
what??it is a play combining different ambience,anthropo&ergonometry of human,architecturally.
Alhamdulillah!!!!!!i would say it was a howling success of our play(yes,a bit hyperbola wit the 'howling') but whatever la kann,after splurging almost rm1000 on our play set,then its all worth what we're lookin for.A gift of 'A' from para dewadewi design sekalian!hell yeahhh + we won overall best play!OUTSTANDING,i guess.n hey,im not bragging on something that cost me an ipod,okay. =)

2.)okay,after long week of sleepless nights juggling design,pastu,pastu datangla pulak ARCHIFEST..*long sigh..i was assigned/appointed/diarahkan/disuruh(baiklah..) utk lead our studio's perfomance for archifest.
ni lagi satu keje yg memenatkan,..so yeah thanks to mihlyle,and the whole troop of the kreinova,n good songs selection by Florence &the Machine & Janelle Monae,n good dance routines,n hell yeahhh kiteorg dpt 3rd place for our perfomance.which we guys consider miracle coz studio2 lain pon sgtla gempak!
btw,i sang suck+telupe lyrics skit on Firewor.ngahahaha *malu gila okay,but whtaver -_-
ahaha

3.)HERE COME THE BEST PART!!!KREINOVA,our studio WE WON THE BEST STUDIO archifest kali ni!!!!and,and!the prize is heavenly heaven of A PRINTER!!!WOOOOO.ni bukan printer cikai okay,its an a3 punye printer worth rm 700++


OH,BTW,so far,i quite havin trust on my constellation.*most of things written did actually came into ma life (((: coz so far,life has been kind to me and at the bottom of everything, u know who to thank to..ALLAH S.W.T (:

please,.draw from the game.bcause it takes TWO TO TANGO.

so far,i didnt like the situation im in.GOSH,the lesson is,BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.& ..that's it.

UPPS.

I'm not suppose to fall for you.& yet,shit.it happens.

Sweeet January

Okay..im back!i guess it takes a lil ‘courage n the excitingness  to  arrive,jst to start typing again.ngahaha oh but first!there’ll be a duo languages used,okiii

 Alhamdulillah =)

So far,everything seems nice and most of works worked according to plans! *well, surprisingly awesome!

So let’s see..

14.01.2011

Tarikh ni sgt penting becoz I would like to tag this day as one of the humorous day ever in this very new year!the day that makes me realize *again* how cool n awesome nye studiomate2ku~ :’)

So,aritu ari jumaat,n we got a very short notice yg kene pergi kelas Land Surveying kat menare nun jauh tu.so me & put(one of my close friends),we got into abu’s 4wheel drive*ceyy kasi sodap sikit name kat krete lama abu tu hehe..nk dipendekkan crita,wafiy pon dtg kat kereta kteorg sbb xtaw dye patut naik kreta sape nak gy klas tuh.td dye kate naik mihlyle,pastu dye pegy kat kreta arip plak tp arip kate kereta dye x le org dok kat back seat dye nanti tenggelam ke ape camtu la,haha kesian wafiy.

So last2  wafiy pon naik kereta abu bersame2 dua org gadis sunti ni.

Ok,so the journey begin….*cyh padahal nak gy menare je pon tp byk gila drama.haha so,otw kat dpan padang kawat tuh,tetibe nmpak due makhluk ni tepi jalan ngan motor yg x terjalan.hahah.tu dia padil n kimi.dah  tu mulalah terjerit2 suro kteorg  pull over.baiklah.

Me to padil-kenape weh?

Padil -weyh moto aku abis minyak ah hadoo..

Kahkahkah!

Lets rewind beberape hari sebelum kejadian ni

Padil masuk dalm studio dgn memakai helmet nye yg baru

‘zet,aku da ade inspirasi baru’ dgn seyuman penuh kepuashatian

Mane xnye,MOTOR dye yg baru je kene effect airbrush ceyy’ kire mcm growing of self confidente  la kan.

So then I said

‘woo lpas ni bole la ko bwk awek naik motor kann!’

Ok,back to kejadian moto rosak x de minyak

Hahahahahahah

Ape la padil.tu baru bawak kimi,nasib baik bukan Fatimah ke,rosmah ke naik motor ko.kalo x mmg market da turon daa

K,k,so close padil nye story ,kimi naik motor hasib yg kebetulan lalu tepi padang kawat tu gak  n padil ikut arip nye krete.*ni kire mcm konvoi reramai la sbb smue taktaw kelas kat mane kt area menare tu

Pastu bole la plak wafiyy call am,punyela tanye dye kat mane tup tup am mmg da dlm kete dye kat blakang kete kteorg nih.haha klaka la wafiy.haih

So after drama tepi padang kawat kteorg continue the journey to menare...ups! abu kene patah balik gy bus stand perindu amek felix si budak sabah yg tertinggal sorg2..

So we continue pgy menare,*again n hell yeah!akhir nye smpi gak ==’ so instead of class started at 3,(tapi sbb total masa ‘weh ko naik kete mane’+ moto airbrush xde minyak+jln2 reramai  wandering where the hell the class was+naik tangge turun tangge)so the class started at 5.sian prof tunggu.haha

Abes klas tu, we all reramai hangout+makan2 dinner kat Pak Li..bergelakketawe sesame..

What a tiring but its  enough to make a wonderfool day together with th peeps!

I love u guys.the kreinovas.tq =)