here you go!i'm at this is one moment*suprisingly not the awkward one* when i'm least expecting for the details of knowing something tremendously bad is gonna happen.atleast without looking back,i ll shut my eyes & covers those ears from the harsh truth-revealing(sooner) *will help me get through this*.gahh this is time when truth seems absurd,babe.

DearGod,please finish me.*with a happy ending,perhaps?*

p/s:beat me on something you hardly complaint about.then you win.

dan pabila emak bersuara

'kak ngah,balik cuti ni emak nak hantar pergi belajar driving' and i went like 'emak,saye xde perasaan lagi lah nak bawak kereta'.
,weh!i cant really imagine im holding those steering konon bajet nak bawak mcm van diesel dlm fast & furious tuh.pergh.AKAN TETAPI,ye,kalau tgh jalan mggunekan kaki ni pun mcm x ambik kisah kete lalu lalang (main cross je)dont remind  me of countless time drama nak melintas jalan bersama rakan2.bila nak melintas dgn zet je msti smue org takut nyawa melayang sbb dia suka main melintas sesuka hati je = ='(hey,nak save time,okay!)
DAN INIKAN PULAK nak drive those mobile thingy that got that 4 wheels underneath??huish.mg kete tu x tahan sehari la da kemek remuk langgar sanasini.see mom!i'll be a reckless driver & you get to pay surat saman tu every month kot nanti!hahah.lagipun,what choice pun do i have even IF i got the license,coz it's either dad's old car yg stereng berat gila(ready-to-be-junk)*sorry dad! & that silver car yg mom will never ever compromise even for single,tiny lil scratch(x boleh okay!) so mmg mcm takkkan terbawak mane2 pun.heh.nampaknye tiap2 hari kene sewa kereta kancil kalau nak bersiar-siar di kota raya!LOL!

to start something new,is the endeavour to leave the old things behind you & how strong of you ,to hardly not turning back.still.it against my will.why should i?at least not for now.im still the one who accept the norms of life,in place where she thinks these are way much safer than professing her new thoughts,deviating from the usual scenes of regularity,typicality.
this is different.a sequence to different dimension of mind.im not prepared for the undertakings.the agreements,,the commitment.
I doubt her.The one that trapped inside.

sheeshh scribbling words after midnight studies.none of todays accomplishment,zet!