it is what it is

meeting 2 of my friends that already resume studies in Master.
dinner with another two that landed theirselves in KL's prestigious firms.
chatting with a friend.Just got herself into TR Hmzah & Yeang.

What more than any of these,to make me feels like a loser.
Being the pessimistic me,who overthink excessively,i havent send out my resumes.

I admit,sitting on the couch all day is not my thing,but to start working,to really,really committed to something,i wasnt sure i m ready..I have my brain preoccupied with all these 'what ifs'.What if i cant do this?what if i dont get my works done on time?what if they throw me out of the office?Too much of what ifs gives me painful headaches.

I've even try to consult with my super senior who already in UK for her studies(again,depressed.)
At the last of her sentences,she reminded me,
'Always think yourself as a learner,not a worker'
ahh.a slight of relief.
thanks kak shiela.

I need to remind myself of positivity.Accompany by His guide.I know I must trust Him for all things happen next.

It is what it is.Dear 22 self,You are no longer 13 years old who costantly yawn and cries.Not anymore.Come and get the money,honey!

Kata nak kaya.

positivity please.

http://elitedaily.com/life/15-things-happy-people-dont-do/
 i reaally have to stop doing this.

'5. Seek Validation From Others'

Happy people do not look to others to confirm their self-worth. They recognize their value on their own and don’t live up to anyone’s expectations. They do things for themselves that they believe will advance them in life. By not concerning themselves with the opinions of others, they can focus on personal growth.

a dusty one

see who we bumped into at Nouman Ali Khan's talk.
this shall be a dusty post because as we knew his talk already ended nearly 2 weeks ago.LOL

Gosh I wish we have more speakers/educators/lecturers/thinkers like him in Malaysia.Not to say U.A.I's not good,but i prefer this man speech deliverance,which was beyond awesome and the subject he brought into the hallroom,Miracle of Quran,subhanallah,this reminds me of how maaany beautiful things i didnt realise while i was holding & simply read those ayat in the Quran blindly. :(
and found this,too.

FATS NEVER MAGICALLY DISAPPEAR.

it's almost 2 weeks since i started to exercise.bear in mind people,exercise and workout are two different regimes to pull out(exercise's the mild one.less rough).it's funny how i actually can cycle around the neighbourhood for almost an hour.Then i would go for slow walking(as doctor advised me to do so since i have small feets,he said).All together makes up more than one hour.yup,to actually burn calories,you need more than one hour of exercising,then only your body starts to take things seriously.-,-

to my own suprise,i've turned from someone  who goes to supermarket,obliviously picking up things and straight up to cashier,into someone who literally checked what's actually inside of th orange juice on the back of the pack,before i actually gonna purchase it.aand i didnt took the smaller pack..i was surely in shocked knowing the actual amount of sugar they put in there.to think how religiously i drank 1 litre of Peelfresh during my noob days when i started my diet routines(konon healthy),err im in regret isk isk isk.I actually drank orange flavoured-sugar drink instead of the innocent orange juice haih(we're easily melt with nice packaging,right) next time,never let 'nutritional facts' pass our eyes easily.at least they stickered something true about the product.

The amount of carbs we consumed is something we should watch for.Those who wants to shed/peel/burn their fats,never exceed 20 g of carbs PER DAY.HAHA.i still cheat on this one.Susah,okay.
Till then,blog!

OMG

these past few days had been really,really ermm 'incredibly satisfying'..?
let's just say,i began a fresh start,ladies and gents.
1st day
the first time i hiked the hill,i almost exhausted to deaathh.seriously.
an old man overpassed me and asked 'awak umur berapa..'
yeah go on asking me like that,uncle. -,-
this is my second attempt in million years i went for hiking and of course,i hyperventilated like cray cray. T_______T

2nd day
Almost died like the first day.Battle continues.

3rd day
Mild running.A few miles from home.Avoid friendly neighbours who offered a ride back home.

4th day
Badminton with sis,cycling around neighbourhood.

5th day
Yayy i cant believed i didnt take too much stops before we got to the top.muahaha.The stamina has gone better,insyaallah!heheh

Hmm i reaally hope i dont stop half way,man.i want some 'legit curves'.i want to be satisfied.i want a brand new me.Givin myself one year.One year of transformation.Perseverance & Patience are two words i must hold on to,.....from now on.

running or hiking,ey?

http://healthyliving.azcentral.com/burns-fat-running-hiking-15542.html

p e r f e c t h i a t u s

havent been in here for quite some time.everywhere's dusty and rusty,no?well,hi blog.

i guess i've been drugged by laziness and current obsession on keeping myself in a quite room.

i already prepared a list of things-to-do and the number just keep growing and mann,i havent made an attempt for job interviews (my 'baju kerja' and the nice pair of leather loafers will have to stay in the wardrobe before i decide on making my portfolio,ngahaha).'nevertheless',my nearly adequate ample time is filled with some quite cool activities,i tell ya.

Lemon-aid Project | KanvasKosong | Hike-Hike-Hike | Akstrakt

i rather not mumble and talking like an empty can.

hence..

till we meet again,blog.

...

semua orang ada cita-cita,hala tuju.kau dan dia,tak kan sama.yang penting,asal kau yakin percaya yang kau punya,kejarlah ia.

EXAGGERATE,IMPULSE,EXPLOAD,EXTRA,LOUD,EXTREME.

LAST BUT NEVER LEAST.STRONG FAITH TO GO ALONG.

When I say I'ma do something I do it,
I don't give a damn what you think,
I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world

tolong masukkan aku dalam kapsul.aku malas nak menghadap dunia sekarang ni.

"Sembunyikan kebaikanmu sebagaimana kamu sembunyikan keaibanmu.."

whistle if you now have a pair of jeans awaits!

0.5 saat

bila dia terpacak betul-betul depan mata.hamek kau.tapi aku bagi senyum ragu-ragu dlm 0.5 saat tapi dia pandang je.tapi nak kata dupdapdupdap pun tak de pun.heh.rasa kelakar....sangat. -,-

Human being to the mob
What's a mob to a king?
What's a king to a God?
What's a God to a non believer?
Who don't believe in anything.

Very manipulating,you people.It takes a deep thought to swallow the meaning & not letting yourself fall for this.

to Him we gave ourselves.

“Ya Allah, aku berlindung denganMu daripada keluh kesah dan kesedihan, dan aku berlindung denganMu daripada kelemahan dan kemalasan, dan aku berlindung denganMu daripada sifat pengecut dan bakhil, dan aku berlindung denganMu daripada bebanan hutang dan daripada penindasan orang.”

yes.say goodbye to your closetmates.im takin you off the rack for moi soon to be new bag!ngehehe

alkisah pembeli dan penjual di tgh malam

scumbag shop owner!how can she laughed at the end of conversation leaving me startled & all gelabah wanting this bag so much.

oh on the other hand,this means catfight.

"come & get me."

a good day is today!

Meet Baby AliaButang!She cried when saw us strangers but yeeah we still got to grab you babeh!

here;s one more happy news.you knew you're one lucky girl when you fell in love with a pair of boyfriend pants that sell in store that don't deliver to m'sia*superlame* but then you got friends in europe tht can help  bringing this dream jeans right to your doorstep??

ignorance ISNT always bliss.

i always wonder why they said it's sunat to read Al-Kahfi on your Jumaat basis.this surah is actually consist of pages long enough that i always stop reading half than the halfway.teruk ni.and on top of all,i didnt even do it on my weekly basis.

however,it is a relief to found this (after some time).

Rasulullah saw bersabda:“Barangsiapa yang membaca sepuluh ayat dari surat Al-Kahfi, ia tidak akan terkena bahaya fitnah Dajjal, barangsiapa yang membaca seluruh ayatnya ia akan masuk surga.” Hadis ini bersumber dari Sammarah bin Jundab dari Nabi saw. (Tafsir Nur Ats-Tsaqalayn 3: 242)

and being the worst human,i always took things lightly back in asrama when they say 'let's practice Al-Mulk every night before we go to bed.'no.i never did.not till now that i discover the virtues of the Surah itself.

• Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam bersabda: “Sebahagian surah-surah yang terdapat di dalam Al-Quran ada satu surah yang mengandungi 30 ayat. Surah itu surah Al Mulk. Ia memberi syafaat kepada orang yang membacanya dengan mengeluarkannya dari Neraka dan memasukkannya ke dalamSyurga.” 

• Ulama berkata: ”Sesungguhnya surah Al Mulk itu melepaskan pengamal-pengamalnya dari kena azab. Ia akan bersoal jawab pada hari kiamat di hadapan Tuhan kerana menuntut kelepasan mereka yang mengamalkannya dari azab api Neraka

haih.we often want to prove ourselves the best with people around us.but what happen to our relationship with our Maker?I often fail to show Him that i love Him,proving i'm one right creation to Him.that i know He's always be the One that i turn to when im in downside of life.that the reason of my living breath is nothing but only,for Him.

How can He constantly pour the love to His slaves,while people like me often live in ignorance without doing deeds,purely in the name of Allah.'I study architecture in the name of Allah','i eat in the name of Allah','i sleep in the name of Allah'.I'm awake & alive because of Allah.

I often being forgetful.Shame on it.but that's us,human.Our faith always been tested without us realising it.

we forget that Apart from disaster and disease,happiness & prosperity also reckon as test in this life.

Being a better muslim is everyone's hope.but,to practice what you preach is another different story.

Might be among the toughest  challenge to be a better person.

Though im among those people who still climbing up/crawling in doing things in life that please God,i wish He could smile on me.What a feel!amin ya rabbal alamin.insyaallah.

My heart is beyond gratitude to God for surround & blessing me with my loving family and friends.I wanted them to know how much i appreciate their presence in my everyday life despite my wrongdoings(pranking,bullying,temperamental being on top of the list)  thoroughout my life and that i pray for each one of them success in life & hereafter.